Stop This Train

| Stop This Train...John Mayer at his best according to me. The song got me thinking as soon as it started playing. The guy has defined so many lives in one song. Stop this train.....I wanna get off and go home again....As I look back a few years , I'm very surprised at how much have i changed and how much I have evolved over the years. What would the 10 year old version of myself think about the present me ?

I do not like the speed I'm moving at. Nothing's steady . Everything and everyone is changing by the second. I look around myself and see different people and the different ways they react in different situations . Einstein once said " The only thing constant is Change ". Beautiful thought.

I wish there was a way to just pause. Pause for a moment to relax. To rest. But I guess the only time we rest is when we die. Even while sleeping our body's performing a number of operations , we are dreaming about things that can happen and that could have taken place. Every second we are onto something new. The movie which was supposed to have "woken up a generation" ,i.e., Rang De Basanti is still talked about , is still admired...but the message it put across went to a total waste. But lets get back to the topic. This movie had a dialogue " our one foot is resting in yesterday.....the other one's in the future that is why we are being forced to piss on the present ". Why can't we just Stop The Train ? Why can't we just Grow Up Once Again ?

What if we grew up having the wisdom and the knowledge we have now ? Wouldn't it be a bit easier ? We are always striving for perfection . We always want more . Our expectations knows no bounds . Tyler Durden says in Fight Club " Man, I see in fight club the strongest and smartest men who've ever lived. I see all this potential, and I see squandering. God damn it, an entire generation pumping gas, waiting tables; slaves with white collars. Advertising has us chasing cars and clothes, working jobs we hate so we can buy shit we don't need. We're the middle children of history, man. No purpose or place. We have no Great War. No Great Depression. Our Great War's a spiritual war... our Great Depression is our lives. We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires, and movie gods, and rock stars. But we won't. And we're slowly learning that fact. And we're very, very pissed off. "

Now that movie said...if you can't stop this train then Finish It ! The movie had an invention called "fight club" to act as a vent for the "great depression". But thats not how we have to move. Because this is not how the world functions. And thats the beauty of life where every mind and every soul is striving to attain peace through something or the other. We may cry , we may fuss but we will never be able to stop the train. The train that is known more commonly as life. We'll have to learn how to move on and keep moving. Do not loose faith. Never give up .

Get busy living, or get busy dying.

Exceprts from the diary of a guy II

Excerpts from the diary of a guy

PART 1

part 2

2nd november 2007

a week left to diwali

i went to a diwali mela....was having the time of my life until she arrived

and again.....the same thing....i couldn't speak.....walk.....move.....anything.

i took control over myself somehow and said hi.....she smiled(WOW!!)....and said "Heyy!!....How Are you ?.."

she looked so brilliantly beautiful.....like God's finest creation.....She was with her own group of friends...

I felt out of place.....totally.....I didn't know what was i doing there standing and acting like a complete asshole....Shit......i was so embarassed....There are times when you wish you could just disappear.....when you wish the stories of those dragons should come true and one of them should come.....blow its fire.....and swallow you in 1 go....

But again i took some control over myself and replied in the strangest of strange ways out there.....

Anyways....i don't want to go back there.....not in that memory....no i don't....i wish i had never gone.....

why the fuck do i love her so much....when i know i'm not worth her at all.....when i know i don't deserve her at all.....when i know its not meant to be......

i don't have any answer.....and even God won't give me a straight answer...

There's just one thing i know for now...

I love her more than words can say.....She's my everything by far....

I don't care what happens......how many times i make a fool of myself....i love her....i accept this fact.....and since i know nothing can happen in this direction.....i won't do anything about it.....i'll just look at her.....admire her......write a thousand lines on that impeccable beauty ....but from a distance....

You see how confusing this damn thing is...

Jumping from 1 conclusion to another.....talking about everything and anything.....day dreaming 24 x 7......99% pain......1% pleasure.....and the fact that how much we love to experience and tolerate this sweet pain is unimaginable.....how we manage to keep things to ourselves...how we ignore everyone and everything else and think about only that 1 person.......that 1 person for whom we are ready to give up everything....for whom we can do almost anything.....that 1 person....that 1 four letter world called Love.....

Excerpts from the diary of a guy

Does it have any meaning....the 4-letter world called "love"...

well lets take a sneak-peek into the diary of a very dear

friend of mine...

November 2006

A few days to go....and school ends....

:(

Today , School was just fine.

But what happened after school was not fine....

was something....something else...

.i don't have a word for it.

It was cloudy.....i wanted the sun to come out.....

it was so damn cold....

And then.....suddenly out of the blue....this girl bumped into me....

I don't know her name.

I don't know who she was.

I don't know why at that particular moment she bumped into me...

Something happened.....i looked into her eyes....

she said something.....but i couldn't listen....

I was so lost......in those dark eyes...

I kept staring.....she said something again..."sorry"....

"it's okay"...i replied...well it wasn't exactly like the movies you know

but i was lost.....

i had no control over myself for

those 10 seconds.

"you say it best when you say nothing at all"

"i'll sit outside heaven's door and listen to your breathing"

A certain kind of intoxication....shit....this can't be happening...

I don't think a girl like her can ever be my friend......

she would laugh off at me...

She was so beautiful.....i could stare at her forever....

i could listen to that voice for ever...

But yes...i just said....."its okay"....

1st September 2007

I met her for the first time....

after a month of chatting on orkut...

i met her...

she reached out....and shook my hand...

it took me at least 10 seconds..if not more..and i am not

exaggerating....

to put my hand forward and say hello...

this day felt like the best day of my life...

i met her... " properly "....for the first time...

yes.....i am crying....because i know she can never be mine...

she would probably be laughing at my damn stupidity right now...

I don't think i am good enough for her...

today i realised what a creep i am...

i may pretend to be the best out there....my friends may tell

me that i am great...

if i am so good....then why can't she be mine.....

because i am not good enough for her...

TO BE CONTINUED.....

Infinity--

for the next 2 days....this guy was lost....

for 30 out of the next 48 hours he thought of her......and only her....

and he wrote a poem which changed his life.....his personality.....

which changed HIM.

The poem is his most treasured possession......

the girl is still very dear to him ( he'll kill me for this.....

because he says....

he doesn't care "anymore" ).

PART 2

| | BAL THACKERAY | |

Balasaheb Keshav Thackeray

What a man......

Born to a lower middle class family.....started his career as a cartoonist....

And today....he's a household name in Maharashtra.....every Marathi manoos(the Marathi commoner) knows who is......Bal Thackeray .

Bal Thackeray is the founder and chief of the Shiv Sena , a Hindu extremist , a Marathi ethnocentric and a populist party active in Maharashtra ( a western Indian state ) .

Now.....this guy is very vocal in his opposition to non-Hindus.....especially Muslims.....to non Marathis....especially Biharis....In 2008 Baal Thackeray issued an editorial titled "ek bihari...sau bimari".....in Shiv Sena's political mouthpiece "Saamna"....

BAL THACKERAY || MUSLIMS

Its not like i love Muslims a lot and i can't stand a word of protest against them and i love that Bangladeshis are migrating to our country ( Your guest should be treated like a God ). But if my guest starts treating my home as his own I would be pissed off....

Bal Thackeray is totally in favour of the idea of "hanging of Indian Muslims and mass expulsion of Muslim migrants from neighbouring Bangladesh".

In 1980s this great man stated that "They [Muslims] were spreading like a cancer and should be operated on like a cancer. The ... country should be saved from the Muslims and the police should support them [Hindu Maha Sangh] in their struggle just like the police in Punjab were sympathetic to the Khalistanis."

whatever that means...

BAL THACKERAY || NORTH INDIANS

Its not like i love Bihar and i will start hating someone who speaks so openely against them. But such hatred which intends to win votes , I am not in favour of that at all..

Well the above mentioned article , "ek bihari...sau bimari" , was written to capture the eye of the public....which is right now in the awe of the great Raj Thackeray ( who is playing the same game which was inaugrated....initiated....by Uncle Thackeray ).

"They [Biharis] are not wanted in southern India, Assam and also Punjab and Chandigarh. The Biharis have antagonised local population wherever they had settled. The UP-Bihari MPs have shown their ingratitude towards Mumbai and Maharashtra with an anti-Marathi tirade in Parliament."

About Bihari MPs -- "spitting in the same plate from which they ate" by criticising Mumbaikars and Maharashtrians. He also wrote, "They are trying to add fuel to the fire that has been extinguished, by saying that Mumbaikars have rotten brains."

Bal THACKERAY || VALENTINE'S DAY

Its not that i cannot woo girls. Its not like i can't take them out. I just wait for the whole year ....wait for that one day....that one special day which has been regarded as the mot special day to spread out the power of love........well almost every other girl likes me and thinks I am great and admires my poems and will admire my blog and i can go on and on....I am just too good!

Bt almost all of them are afraid that a date may turn out to be a nightmare ( obviously not because of me ) but because of....."Shiv Sena" activists who think its indecent ......who think its "not Indian".......

.....bloody impotent species....well thats what i think you are because you won't let others do what you can't imagine in your wildest dreams.......Sissy boys who were set up for girls by their mummy and papa.

( ohh i am so good at appreciating myself ).

Well you see..... this is what happens when you are reading about Bal Thackeray and trying to write about him....YOU GET CARRIED AWAY!

BAL THACKERAY || SACHIN TENDULKAR

Showdown

Now these days Bal Thackeray's popularity s at an all time low because Raj Thackeray is busy taking the blame and doing all the shit around .

So why should Uncle Thackeray be left behind ?.....Why shouldn't he step into the shit when he himself started constipating .

Why not ??

So this is what happens ____

"Mumbai belongs to India. That is how I look at it. And I am a Maharashtrian and I am extremely proud of that but I am an Indian first," said Sachin Tendulkar. The God.....the brilliant artist who plays as if God has Descended down to earth to do Indians a favour.

Shiv Sena played the card "Marathi Manoos" once agian to attract votes. This time they farted over Sachin's face itself.

Thackeray criticised Tendulkar saying there was no need for the cricket icon to take a "cheeky single" and hurting the Marathi psyche by moving to the pitch of politics.

"There was no need for him to take a cheeky single by making such remarks," Sena mouthpiece 'Saamna' quoted Thackeray as saying.

"By making these remarks, you have got run-out on the pitch of Marathi psyche. You were not even born when the 'Marathi Manoos' got Mumbai and 105 Marathi people sacrificed their lives to get Mumbai," he said.

Thackeray expressed displeasure that Sachin "left the crease" and moved to the pitch of politics by making these remarks which have hurt Marathi sentiment.

Okay.

By the way does anyone know that Bal Thackeray appreciates the work done by Adolf Hitler.....He aadmires the man so much that Bal Thackeray feels that India really needs is a dictator who will rule benevolently, but with an iron hand.

What a man.....

He does things so wonderfully well that you have to admire him.

He spreads shit around like gas......he farts like a retard and whenever he opes his mouth .....you can smell the stuff.

Before writing this article i was told that if anyone from THE SENA gets to know about this you're screwed.....I am waiting.....come on bitches I am ready for you!!

Jai Hind!!

Chacha Nehru bhi sutta maarte the

Chacha Nehru also used to smoke.
Okay.

My next post would be on cigarettes .

Watch out for it .

And on this blog i'll also be uploading some of the best pictures i have seen till date . Well that would mean an album dedicated to me :-D . But I am not so self centered , i'll be giving a chance to everyone out there . Nehru gets his chance today .

God Of War

God Of War : Chains Of Olympus

WoW......What a game....i completed it on a borrowed PSP in 2 days . I didn't find a single flaw in the game or any aspect of the game which should be criticised .

Kratos served the Gods , so that they may rid him of the pain caused by his nightmares . No matter what he does , there seems to be no escape . In the beginning he's sent to defend Attica against the persians where he defeats a Persian King and kills his basilisk .

I was amazed during a part of the game where Kratos gets a chance to unload his gun . All that testosterone building up in that part of his body must have taken its toll on him . So he gets his chance to do IT with a pair of lesbian prisoners . And you.....yourself have to press the buttons for a successful time with the ladies . This part comes right after he has defeated the Persian King .

About the rest of the game I can only say one thing "its worth it....worth your time....patience...etc".

Enjoy!

Just Kidding

There are times in your life when the world comes crashing down on you . When you want to run away to a place where no one knows you . When you want to smoke 10 cigarettes and have 3 pegs of your favourite drink . Well that would certainly harm your health in every way possible . So do the simplest thing you can do .

Read the poem below written by your very own " the infinite " . It has helped a lot of people (both friends and foes) till date . What's the problem in trying anyways . Use it as the last resort if you want to . Getting irritating . Right ?....read it :

Just Kidding

life has ditched you bad....
i know that you are very sad....
you woke up from your sleep.....
you never knew.....your worst nightmares will come true and you'll hav to weep....
no one to turn to......no one to say hi....
they never bade farewell....never even said goodbye....

you freak out.....
you want to cry out.....loud...
but no one listens to your plea....
does anyone even want you......you feel....
no one sees your tears of sorrow and pain....
cause you walk alone in this cold and piercing rain....

yesterday everything was yours....
today.....you dont even have a ray of hope...
lost you've become....in this world of hatred and lies...
no one helps this person.....who's so alone......crying...
you think of everything dat has passed by....
school.....college....friends......how you've always been so naive....

you dont have anything in your pocket...
you think of poisoning yourself....just a droplet....
just a droplet it will take...
to end this life....where evryone is so fake...
money.....girls.....booze....."wow"...
how meaningless evrything has become.....you wonder how....

you don't know where to go.....but you run away...
turn your back on this life one beautiful day...
why did it happen..... you feel....
why did evrything go wrong....??
you think.....to this place....do you even belong....??
can't you have everyhting back....??
just as it was.....just perfect.....
my dear mate.....patience is what you lack....
a day will come when all this sorrow will come to an end.....
wait for it my friend....
one day God will listen to you...as you pray...
if no one else.....He will....Himself say...
"take it all son....evrything is yours....
i was Just Kidding...."